you don't get it, never have

i can barely take care of myself.  certainly it is hard to take care of others but in spurts, it's ok.  the thought of being along with the kids for 5 days straight, no support; i am terrified.  you don't get that i get overwhelmed at the thought of this.  and on top of that, you decide to be away on your bday.  this will be your 8th bday since we were together and you choose to spend it away from me.  that hurts.  i want to spend my bday alone.  somewhere.  by myself.  and i'll do it.  don't doubt it.  done it before, do it again.  i deserve to have what i want too.

this looks like a good place to spend my bday.